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They say that geek’s becoming chic…

Well, since i can’t concentrate on my homework that’s due in 2 1/2 hours, I figured I’d write a little.  Since I can’t get this out of my head by continually thinking about it, so maybe if I put it down on digital paper, I can get rid of it and complete my schoolwork.

See, the problem is that Geek & Sundry, Felicia Day‘s YouTube channel, released a new video a couple of weeks ago.  It’s a music video from her work with The Guild. For the uninitiated, The Guild is a webseries that Day writes, produces and stars in, loosely based on her obsession with World of Warcraft.  The song (and the video) is called (I’m the one that’s) Cool and it’s effing FANTASTIC.

Watch the video, I’ll post lyrics after the jump.

1ST VERSE:
Oh, no. Don’t pretend I didn’t see
You roll your eyes at my gaming tee
Don’t know if you can read or if you’ve seen
The sweet piece in this week’s Wired magazine
The latest trend has hit its peak
They say that geek’s becomin’ chic
So now you’re out of style as you can be
And I’m in vogue, so you can bite me

CHORUS 1:
To all the ass-hat jocks who beat me up in school
Now I’m the one that’s cool
I’m the one that’s cool
To all the prom queen bitches thinking they still rule
Now I’m the one that’s cool
I’m the one that’s cool

2ND VERSE:
Try to cop my style but I’m the real thing
While you played sports, I played Magic the Gathering
Never earned your part of nerd society
My Aquaman pajamas prove my pedigree
Watched my Next Gen every night
Wore a headgear to fix my overbite
Your black-rimmed glasses are prescription free, where as me
I literally can’t see my hand in front of my face

CHORUS 2:
To all the asshat jocks who beat me up in school
Now I’m the one that’s cool
I’m the one that’s cool
To all the prom queen bitches thinking they still rule
Now I’m the one that’s cool
I’m the one that’s cool
And to my eighth-grade crush who pushed me in the pool
Now I’m the one that’s cool
I’m the one that’s cool
You may be tan and fit and rich but you’re a tool
And I’m the one that’s cool
I’m the one that’s cool

3RD VERSE:
Role reversal must be a total drag
But there’s no point, no point for me to humblebrag
I appreciate you for being cruel
I’m burning bright thanks to your rejection fuel
Got my in-jokes you won’t get
Like Honey Badger, Troll Face and Nyan Cat
So now your ballin’ parties seem so dumb
You can Evite me, and I’ll say yes, but I won’t really come

Got my comics
Got my games
All the things you thought were lame
Got my cosplay
Fanfic too
Got you pegged
STFU

(CHORUS 2)

I’m the one that’s Cool x4

Now, I’ve talked a bit about high school before, but I’m gonna do it again.  I Love This Song.  I LOVE THIS SONG.  I love this song for many, many reasons.  I tried to explain to Husband why I love this song so much and he just didn’t get it.  But then, if you ask him about high school, all he has to say is “I was a ghost in high school, I was invisible”.  Well, I, for one, am incredibly jealous of that ability.  I am not a … well, I’m not invisible.  For all of my faults, all of my inherent shyness, I am a person that gets noticed.  These days, it’s because I’m covered in tattoos and piercings.  Or because I’m smart.  Or because I’m outspoken and opinionated.  Whatever.

In high school, however, it was a different story.  I’m not going to rehash my history getting gay bashed, but I do want to talk about the intense bullying I experienced because of being a huge nerd.  I’ve never hidden the fact that I’m a huge geek; I was raised on Monty Python, Star Wars, Star Trek, Fantasy novels, Sci-fi, dungeons and dragons.  And it SUCKS being told that you’re a freak, a loser, less than nothing because of the things that you like.  Even at 28 I experience the same type of discrimination and bullying.  I’ve had other “adults” (and I use that term very loosely for people who engage in such immature acts) say things to me like “Why do you play RPGs? That’s for losers.” “Why do you watch Doctor Who? Jersey Shore is so much better. Doctor Who is weird, like you.”

And as weird as it is, I still let it affect me, sometimes.  I’m much better at laughing it off now, I generally only end up in tears when someone I love makes hateful, hurtful comments.  Acquaintances and strangers are generally either ignored or educated.  And I’ve noticed that a lot of the time, these people don’t realize that what they’re doing is bullying.  They think that expressing their opinions in hurtful ways is perfectly OK.  Now, I’m not sitting here trying to advocate suppressing people’s opinions, but there’s got to be an appropriate way to express those opinions without being hurtful.

Anyway, I’ve digressed.  What I really wanted to talk about on this post is the lyrics of (I’m the one that’s) Cool.  “To all the ass-hat jocks who beat me up in school” “To all the Prom Queen bitches, thinkin’ they’re still cool” “To my 8th grade crush, who pushed me in the pool” “You may be tan and fit and rich, but you’re a tool” “Now, I’m the one that’s cool” “Role reversal must be a total drag” “I appreciate you for being cruel, I’m burning bright thanks to your rejection fuel”.

 This song is a survivor’s anthem. This song is all about how all of that shit truly just makes you stronger, makes you better.  It sucks ass when you have to go through it, but it makes you so much more in the long run.

This song means so much to me.  I cried the first time I watched the video.  It was a small grain of proof I’ve needed so desperately my entire life.  Until about 5 years ago, I always felt uncomfortable in my own skin.  Always felt uncomfortable, like I didn’t belong, in the societies I was trying to live in.  Always felt like there was something inherently wrong with me because I didn’t fit in.  And this song is one small glimpse that I’m not the only person who felt like that.  I’m not the only person who had to wait until their mid 20’s to hit their stride, to feel like a normal, functioning human being.  It’s a glimpse that maybe I wasn’t broken, all those years, after all.

And sometimes, I need that glimpse more than I need the next breath of air.

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The Fuck-Its

Hello Internet.  I know, I’ve been quite remiss in my promise to “update daily with funny shit”.  I’m gonna be perfectly honest, I’ve had a real bad case of the fuck-its for about a month.  I’m not really sure why, but I am sure that I need to get over it.

Let’s talk about school.  I found out that I bombed an assignment this week.  I am taking a “Critical Thinking” class right now and we had an assignment due last week about identifying different types of fallacies.  I got 59/100.  Dropped my grade in the class from a 100% to a 90.4%.  Now, for those of you who don’t know or don’t care, my goal is to finish my bachelor’s with a 4.0 GPA, so it’s kind of important for me to maintain my A in this class.  And I know, there’s probably a lot of you that are thinking that “C’s get Degrees!” but since I am going on to a master’s program, finishing my bachelor’s with a 4.0 will make it soooooooo much easier to get accepted into my master’s program of choice.  Admittedly, out of 1000 possible points for this class, we only have 430 graded, so it’s unlikely that I won’t be able to maintain my A, but still.  I’m really, really bumming out about it and kind of hating myself for fucking up so badly.  I know, retrospection is useless at this point and all I can do is knuckle down and make sure that it doesn’t happen again.  Except that my instructor lady (yes, it’s that instructor lady) didn’t give me any feedback about WHAT I got wrong.  So I don’t know what I need to review and study.  And without that information, there’s a very real chance that I’ll study all the wrong shit and fuck it up again the next time around.  I’m going to email her this afternoon and see if she’ll send me a graded copy of my assignment so I know which fallacies I identified correctly and which ones I didn’t.  I’m sure that there’s a really good chance that my email exchange with her will be just as frustrating as the last one.  If it is, I’ll be sure to post it here.

Let’s talk about pointy sharp things!  Archery practice is still going well.  Not a whole lot to report on that front, except that I haven’t hit my forearm with my bowstring a SINGLE FUCKING TIME since I invested in a $30 leather armguard.  I’m still wearing it, but I fixed the technique and form issues I was having and it’s been lovely.  The bruise on my forearm is almost gone, too!

More introspection! Huzzah!  So, I’ve been thinking a lot about The Power of Words lately.  I feel like there’s more that I can do to help LGBT teens other than talking about the issue and relating my own story.  The problem is, I’m pretty inconsequential (haha, get it?) in the big picture and I don’t know what I can do.  A whopping 50 people read my blog (and that might be optimistic) and I don’t know what else I can do to try to raise awareness and promote love and tolerance.  One thing I do want to plug is the Born This Way Foundation.  It’s a non profit started by Lady Gaga and her mom, aimed at increasing tolerance, acceptance and love in the world.  From their mission statement:

The Foundation is dedicated to creating a safe community that helps connect young people with the skills and opportunities they need to build a braver, kinder world.

We believe that everyone has the right to feel safe, to be empowered and to make a difference in the world. Together, we will move towards acceptance, bravery and love.

And that’s beautiful, I think.  So if you have a few minutes, go over and check them out.  Because He made you perfect, babe. ❤

And one more time, PLEASE support the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.

UPDATE:

I sent the following email to Instructor Lady.

Not to be a nitpicker, but you graded my assignment wrong.  When checking the answers with the matrix you provided, I actually got 10/15 correct and not 9/15.  That would make my grade for the assignment 66.6, not 59.94.  Which would make my overall total grade a 91.96%, not 90.4%.  I know that this is something that I need to work on and something that I need to study more, but I also deserve the grade I actually earned.  I would appreciate it if you could correct this.  I have attached a copy of the assignment where I was copying down the correct answers next to the incorrect answers so I could study them, when I noticed that I got “poisoning the well” correct but was not awarded points for it.  I have also attached the grading matrix you provided for me and the my original submission.

Thank you,

Kalypso

Waiting for a reply.  I am really curious what she’s going to say…


Ranty McRanterson

I wanna talk for a moment about higher education.  I go to school online.  I chose to go to school online because when I started my bachelor’s program we had just PCS’d (permanent change of station) to San Antonio and we’re only supposed to be here for a year.  I didn’t want to start going to a ground campus and have to change schools in 10 months when we move again.  I chose University of Phoenix for a few reasons: Husband used to work there as an enrollment councilor for their Military Division, so I knew what I was getting into; They would transfer in the most credits from my AARTS (military) transcripts, basically cutting my degree time in half; It’s all asynchronous communication and I’m crap in real time but I’m pretty epic and witty on the internet (when I have time to edit/think out my responses).  As I think I’ve mentioned before, I am kind of a snarky, sarcastic and often just plain mean girl.  Not having to respond in real time makes it easier for me to stop myself from making the wrong kind of enemies.  Because there’s nothing I love more than explaining to ignorant people why they’re idiots.  The forum environments where we have our “class discussions” allows me to craft responses to these knuckleheads that are usually so well worded that they don’t know I’m taking the piss.

It is my goal to graduate with a 4.0 GPA, as it will make getting into my master’s program of choice so much easier.  So far, I’m doing great.  I think, however, that this block may change everything.  I’m having an issue with one of my instructors.  For the sake on anonymity and to prove that I’m unbiased we’ll refer to her as “Instructor Lady”.

Let me give you some background:  Within the UoP eCampus, you have several discussion forums, including one “individual” forum.  Within the individual forum, the only people who have access are you and your instructor for that class.  So if you have a question or whatever that you don’t want the whole class to see, you post it in the individual forum.  You also have an “assignments tab”, where you upload all of your assignments.  I am, generally, a very logical person with a shitload of common sense.  I know that assignments are supposed to be uploaded through the assignments tab and not through the individual forum. And herein lies the problem.

We had a group of assignments due, 7 to be exact, that were all “take this quiz online and post your scores”.  The FIRST thing in the assignment description was “Review this tutorial and then complete the quizzes”.  The tutorial specifically instructed us to upload our quiz results as a new post in the individual forum.  So I’m looking at this and going “But I thought assignments were all supposed to be submitted through the assignment tab?  But, the instructions in the tutorial say to upload them in the individual forum, so I’ll do that.  I’ll follow the most recent set of instructions, even though they conflict with the previous instructions”.  Because that’s what the US Army teaches you to do: If you receive two sets of conflicting orders from people of equal rank, follow the most recent set.  If you receive two sets of conflicting orders from people of different rank, follow the higher ranking (if they’re in your chain of command).  So I completed the quizzes and uploaded them all as new posts in the individual forums.  And thus, the following email conversation took place*:

Posted: 2/4/12 12:29 PM, by: Instructor Lady
Hi Kalypso,

As I posted in Week 1, ALL assignments are to be posted in the Assignment tab, not your Individual Forum.  They are not officially submitted until they are in the Assignment tab.  Please repost this week’s assignment in the Assignments tab.  Thanks!

Instructor Lady

Now, perhaps I should have let it go at this, but the wording of that first sentence irked me.  “As I posted in Week 1…”  Like I wasn’t paying attention or something.  Like this confusion is my fault.  So I write her back:

Posted: 2/4/12 4:30 PM, by: Kalypso Inconsequential

Just an FYI, you should probably have someone examine the tutorial, as it specifically it states we should submit the quiz scores through the individual forum. I’ll resubmit them through the assignment tab tonight, but as I was following the instructions from the tutorial, I don’t think the assignment should count as late.

Kalypso

And she wasn’t having any of that.  Oh no, not her.  She wouldn’t even acknowledge the conflicting instructions and again tried to conclude that I wasn’t paying attention when she told us to post everything in the assignments tab:

Posted: 2/5/12 7:43 AM, by: Instructor Lady

Hi Kalypso,

On January 24th, I posted the following:

The Help Desk and I have finally been able to work out the glitch with the Assignment Tab.  Please DO NOT submit this week’s (and every weeks) Checkpoint and Assignment in your Individual Forum.  Instead please submit it in your ASSIGNMENTS TAB.  Thanks and sorry for the confusion!

If you notice, it states that every week’s assignment should be posted in the Assignments Tab.  However, if you have any questions about how to post something, you are welcome to post it either in the Individual Forum or the Question Thread that is posted in the Main Forum.  I apologize for not clarifying. This is part of the curriculum that is copied and pasted directly from UOP Course Guide Design, but also I did not receive a question from any student, so I did not know there was an issue.

However, I do understand that mistakes do happen.  This is why I did not mention losing points for incorrect submission.  Keep in mind though that all future assignments should be posted in your Assignments tab and if you have a question, please let me know before the assignment is due.  Thanks.

Instructor Lady

At this point, I’m pissed.  Don’t ignore what I’m saying and keep repeating yourself.  LISTEN (or in this case, actually read) what I am saying.  So I might have crossed the line in this last one, but we’ll see what she has to say if/when she writes be back…

Posted: 2/6/12 10:42 AM, by: Kalypso Inconsequential

Yes, I understand that, what I am saying is now that you are aware that there are two conflicting sets of instructions for this assignment, you have a responsibility as the instructor to review the processes that are in place.  If the tutorial gives conflicting instructions on how to turn in the assignment, then the tutorial should be reviewed.  And you, as the instructor, are the one bearing the responsibility to bring it to the attention of the “powers that be” at the university.  They may not change anything, but whoever is responsible for the content present in the tutorial needs to be made aware of the conflict.  I’m not trying to set blame for the conflicting instructions, it’s highly possible that no one has noticed the conflict.  I am just trying to bring it to your attention.  Being a veteran of the military, I am very much in the habit of “If you receive two sets of conflicting instructions, follow the most recent”.  Because that’s what the army teaches us.

(I promise, I’m really not trying to be contrary just for the sake of being contrary, but I am a fairly logical person with a boatload of common sense.  If I was confused by the conflicting instructions it’s highly likely that someone else will be as well.)

I just wanted to make sure that I wasn’t going to be penalized for a vague set of instructions.

Thanks,

Kalypso

Now, I know that I probably shouldn’t have sent that last email, but for fuck’s sake, this is a “Critical Thinking” course.  Critical thinking involves reviewing and weighing all sides and facets of an argument or issue before making a judgement.  Which is exactly what I did.  I saw that there were two sets of conflicting instructions and based on my life experience, choose to obey the most recent.

So we’ll see what happens.  I’ll keep you posted.

*Disclaimer: These emails have been edited, but only so far as to replace my real name, my instructor lady’s name and both of our email addresses.  Everything else is verbatim.